MY STRUGGLE TO LEAVE MAKE UP AND PEOPLE’S HARSH REACTION!
In a recent post I shared how I begun a journey to stop wearing make-up completely. It has not been easy but I am determined to go all the way.
Leaving some of the make-up such as mascara, eyeliner, lipstick was automatic since I was not that attached to them. My real struggle has been with my powder foundation. I honestly didn’t realize how hooked I was on it.
When I am at home and moving around the estate I do not care much for make-up. The most challenging part for me is when I have to go on a date, business in town and work since that’s the time you want to look ‘your best’. And the lie that has been stuck in our minds is you only look good when you are wearing make-up.
The first time I was to go out in public, I woke up and told God I have to wear make-up today. I said “I will leave it overtime just be patient.” As I was preparing I decided not to wear make-up anyway. “I am going to start at some point right, it rather that day be today” I said.
The one thought I had was, there I go, no man or person will notice me today. I will be invisible as I will not be half as pretty as the girls walking beside me. WOW! I have never been that insecure in my life. I was so conscious and it really got to me, in fact to the point of tears. I was so aggrieved,you guys have no idea. I still feel that way sometimes as I go out. God will help me through this.
There is something about knowing what God wants and you defying it out rightly. For me it is like a dark cloud lingering and it is very uncomfortable. But His yoke is easy and He is patient with us.
There is also the other side of it when you actually obey Him despite your intense desire to do it your way. There is this feeling of Him smiling broadly at your obedience and that is a feeling I relish.
As I post this it’s about a month since I stopped wearing make-up. It gets better with time. I have been applying natural shea butter on my face every day. It is a natural sunscreen and does not leave your face oily (Something I hate!).
NOW THE MOST SURPRISING PART FOR ME WAS PEOPLE’S REACTIONS.
Trust me guys, it’s already hard as it is going about this change and then have people add on to it with their harsh comments.
People’s reactions have been varied from polite suggestive comments to straight up harsh ones.
My twin sister wears her hair natural.
We cracked up when her work colleague told her “I don’t find people who wear their hair natural pretty. You should try and put perm in your hair.”
Now things got very real for us recently when we experienced one of the most hurtful reactions.
The most hurtful comments I have heard,were from people very close to me. My heart stings a bit when I remember this.
It was a Saturday and I looked as natural as a lady in Nairobi can get. I had on a beautiful kitenge, braided my natural hair into two puffy cornrows and as you would expect no make-up.
When some of my family members saw me and my twin they were like “You do not wear make-up anymore?” we were like “yeah”.
Now the next statement is one I will never forget. After laughing sarcastically at us they said “Woe unto you, you will not get husbands and if you do they will leave you for women who look better than you!”
If you are shocked we were more shocked than you are. Never in a million years did I think I would hear such words from my own family. We asked them “Don’t you think we are beautiful as we are without make-up?” They bluntly said NO before going ahead to accuse us of joining a cult.
I thought we were the only only ones getting backlash till i saw this:
Is it that I am not beautiful in their eyes without make-up? No!!!I am beautiful.
The problem is we are viewing beauty from the world’s point of view.
The world has told us that beauty is make-up.
What has shocked me the most is how much we have bought into make-up as the real deal when God’s workmanship is the real deal.
Being a Christian who is intentional on walking with God till the end is not an easy fit. Most times you will be asked to give up on things you love and mean a lot to you.
In this time I would love to remind us of the verse:
Mathew 10:38 – 40 “Then Jesus told His disciples,
“If anyone would come after Me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow Me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it. What will it profit a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul?”
Carrying the cross is not easy and only the one willing to go the whole way will say yes to losing their life for Christ to live. Honestly the more I walk this walk the more I understand it is not about me. It is all about Him.
One thing Christians who have truly decided to walk with God will notice is that YOU LOVE GOD MORE AND ARE MORE THAN GLAD TO GIVE UP THE THINGS HE ASKS .This is because you are INTENTIONAL on going all the way to the finish line for His name’s sake.
I pray this message helps and encourages someone out there and may we all receive grace from our dear Lord Jesus to walk in obedience to Him. God bless you all.
Featured image:My pale skin on youtube